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Toronto Portrait Photographer || HEARTshots || Black + White Photography

Memoirs and musings of Darius Bashar. Toronto portrait photographer and writer, in pursuit of all things real, raw and intimate. 

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A New Journey Together

Dear Little D,

I love your little mushroom haircut. 

I love how silly and playful you get.

I also love you when you are quiet or scared.

The next time you feel scared, remember that you don’t need to figure things out on your own. 

I’m here too. And I will always be here for you. Always. Always. Always. 

There are a lot of others here for you as well. They also love and care for you a lot. 

I know this can feel scary or overwhelming at times, because it’s been just you and me for a long time. 

But if you are open to it, maybe it’s time to let a few other people in as well.

No rush. No expectations.

Just an idea.

If it feels right, grab my hand and we’ll go on a new journey together. 

There are so many beautiful and uncharted adventures that we could explore. 

Love always and forever,

Big D

"I Hate Getting My Photo Taken"

I used to hate all photos of myself. I would do everything in my power to avoid even seeing myself because it was too uncomfortable. Sometimes I would brush my teeth with the lights off because it was not fun standing in front of the mirror in my bathroom.

What happen? What shifted? How did I get here? That’s a longer story for another time…

Today, I see photos of myself and I feel so much love for the human looking back at me.

He’s so sweet, tender, funny, and kind. And to me he’s beautiful beyond words.

I love my human. He’s so special to me.

And I’m sorry for all those years I was unwilling to see him and celebrate him.

I am so glad we found our way back to love and back to each other.

Do you relate to this? Drop a comment below and let me know.

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Photo by the amazingly talented @Michchiu

#beautifulhumans #behindthephoto

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Love Letter to Myself
It’s okay to have lighter days. 
It’s okay to rest. 
It’s okay to ask for support. 
It’s okay to have a lot of feelings. 
It’s okay to be giddy AF. 
It’s okay to be scared. 
It’s okay to feel invincible. 
It’s okay to be exactly who you are. 
I love you… all the way. 
I got you always. 
You don’t need to do anything or create anything to be loved. 
You are always loved. 
You are always loved.
You are always loved. 
Light

laugh.
dance. 
be light. 

beloved,
you are the light. 

we all are,
and one day soon,
we will return.